This week

Well this has been one hell of a week and honestly this has been the last thing on my mind. I have ate mostly like shit. Still no eating out and turkey meat instead of hamburger. But a lot of sodas and vodka. I will get back on track but most likely not till after monday. As many of you have seen on fAcebook i lost a very special lady this week. The lady i take care of in houston had a massive stroke and was unresponsive when my mom went to wake her up. She ended up with massive damage to the left side of her brain and was sent home from the hospital still unresponsive to die. Thankfully she didnt have to starve to death cause her brain started to swell and cut of her breathing the night she went home. Sounds awful but i better than her starving to death and not being able to help her since she was not concious. She was one of the hugest role models in my life. She was way more than a patient for me she was closer to me than majority of my family. She loved me for me and was always accepting of anything i showed interest in. In fact on my last trip i was telling her about derby and how i made captain and she was saying how she used to watch it on tv and she was happy for me but she didnt think she could of ever played cause she would be too scared of getting hurt, haha. I have a ton of great memories and laughs with her that are helping to keep me strong, but i do still miss her. When you are telling each other bye you never think it will be for the last time. So i am struggling right now. Nobody take it personal if i am stand off ish or quiet its just an overwhelming week and its hard to keep my mind from thinking about her and our times together. I am very,thankful to have all of you and really apprieciate all the support yall have shown me. Bear with me i will find my way to get through this. Diet you can kiss my ass this week! I will deal with you soon

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